what am I doing? Am I completely crazy thinking I can care for a BABY?! Am I going to be able to hold him correctly? Crap we don't have a name yet? The baby's room isn't organized? Our master bath and closet isn't done yet!? How do I work this car seat thing??!!! What if i forget about him? Am I ever going to be able to sleep again like people say I am NOT? Am I going to have all the STUFF I need from that HUGE Babies R US store? I need to lock myself in a room and just study and read all the books that people keep recommending? Am I working out enough? Gaining to much weight? Not enough weight?
Then just like that in a split second I have the "day dream" moments where I get so excited to see him and hold him. Yep not thinking about the thought I JUST had about me not being able to hold him. I get so excited that all the little stupid worries I have disappear. I can't wait to meet him and teach him so many exciting things. He is going to come no matter what and I know that I will just make it work.
I think I have started the early stages of "nesting" just because I want everything done and in it's place. This means Wes has a lot of HONEY DO's. Which he isn't to thrilled or johnny on the spot of getting my demanding before Lil Ritter comes list done. He is the "laid back" one in the marriage. The damn house could be on fire and he would be calm and cool. I remember when I used to be.... But that is how we work so well together.
Other than all the emotional moments I have had this week everything has been great.
Mom to be: Gaining weight like I should (hard for me to understand) feeling good. Still rocking the heels at work, but changing into flip flops. I have noticed that my energy level is dropping by the end of the day. I am still able to sleep through the night, if it is cool enough in the bedroom and my mind is at peace. I'm getting excited and nervous all wrapped into one.
Dad to be: He is still working on the house. Trying to get that Honey Do list done before the lil guy arrives. He has been very encouraging and supportive about me and my struggles. Remember the "laid back" part. He hasn't gotten over the fact that the house is going to be "freezing" to him until my oven is done cooking. He has taken time to rub my feet after a long day. He is a good guy I think I will keep him!!
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